Blogging the experience of gameplayhttps://www.gamelog.cl/gamers/GamerPage.php?idgamer=1468https://www.gamelog.cl/logs/LogPage.php?Log_Id=4812GameLog # 3 I don’t know whether to talk about my morality concerning the game, or the characters’. Eric and Dylan don’t seem to care what they do, who they hurt, because they don’t feel cared for or assimilated into any part of society. Whenever they show even a little morsel of compassion for others, one always replies with, “Who cares?” right after. They believe that if no one cares whether they live or die, why should they? They’re hurt, so they think that hurting others is justified by their actions. It’s an eye for an eye to them, which is another moral philosophy archaic and law of retaliation. In that case, I fully understand why Eric and Dylan did what they thought was right, even though it was wrong. What I can’t figure out is while most people might feel uncomfortable about playing this game, I don’t seem to mind at all. I’m not saying I enjoy killing innocent people in a virtual world based off actual events. I feel that I have become desensitized by other violent games and media. I’ve read other people’s posts about the game and as a whole; it irks many people to do such malicious things that actually happened. I’m just confused as to why I don’t feel that way. As others feel very uncomfortable while playing the game, I stay calm and indifferent and I kill cheerleaders, jocks, and other innocent students. I view this game exactly for its intention, as just a game. It has objectives, I need to complete them for an ultimate prized. It’s all lights and clockwork. Violent videogames like this never evoked any emotion from me nor did they ever influence me to do something I knew was wrong. I’ve always stuck to the pure morals my parents taught me to have since I was young. I don’t think this makes me apathetic towards violence, I think I just perceive t he purpose of this game differently than most people. Wed, 12 Oct 2011 11:30:53 CDThttps://www.gamelog.cl/logs/LogPage.php?Log_Id=4812&iddiary=8934https://www.gamelog.cl/logs/LogPage.php?Log_Id=4812As I continued to play this game that recreates the Columbine massacre, I kept thinking that this game should make me feel a certain way. I should feel bad for reenacting real executions of high school students and actual murders. The game treats this event very lightly because it is, in fact, just a game. It’s not meant to be taken seriously. Like how this whole game is reminiscent of the Pokémon games. They way the game starts, the adventure, and even the battle scenes are all modeled after that classic RPG. So form that perspective, I have become desensitized by the fact I know that this is just a game and might unintentionally offend people because of of the game’s accuracy to the real events. I start off going into the school attempting to place the bombs in the cafeteria. It’s very hard for me to figure this game out. I’m not used to using my brain in games. I usually don’t have to think, I can just go because the games that I play don’t have such a complex storyline. After I finally place the bombs in the cafeteria, they don’t even detonate, which really angered me after I spent so much time tying to place them. After that, we go back outside to the parking lot where you could battle people, but I tried to avoid them. Then I went back into the cafeteria to detonate the bomb. As I left, there was a flashback of the character sitting alone at a lunch table. I’ve heard that Dylan and Eric were social outcasts and that is what triggered their anger toward everyone. I tried to explore more, but I kept getting caught and quickly grew frustrated and quit the game. I think the game is supposed to make the player feel compassion for Eric. He was treated unfairly and shunned by his peers for being different. But how can I be sympathetic for a person who kills innocent people out of irrational anger?Tue, 11 Oct 2011 23:48:29 CDThttps://www.gamelog.cl/logs/LogPage.php?Log_Id=4812&iddiary=8911https://www.gamelog.cl/logs/LogPage.php?Log_Id=4812GameLog #1 From what I know about the shooting at Columbine High School is only from the movie Bowling for Columbine. Two kids who didn’t conform to the social norms of teenage life didn’t like the way they were treated for their uniqueness. So they decided the only way for people to feel their pain was to inflict it. In their minds, they was nothing immoral about what they were doing because they though their actions were justified. The game starts with me playing as Eric, one of the two shooters. He wakes up in is bed ready to start his adventure. It reminded me of the Pokémon games because it looks and plays very similar to it. He then calls his accomplice, Dylan, to plan the attack ahead of them. I couldn’t exactly make out what they were saying because the text was so pixilated. Eric when down into his basement to get the materials for the day. One of the things I found was a Marilyn Manson album. His music was accredited to malicious attacks, such as this one, by perpetuating bad ideals and using his status to influence their listeners. He argues that he simply makes music and the people interpret it in whatever way they decide. After he gets all the stuff, they drive down to the school to plant the bombs in the cafeterias. While on the drive there, they listened to the Marilyn Manson album. The game prolonged each scene so I haven’t done any damage yet. I’m still trying to figure out how to even play this game.Mon, 10 Oct 2011 23:49:47 CDThttps://www.gamelog.cl/logs/LogPage.php?Log_Id=4812&iddiary=8888https://www.gamelog.cl/logs/LogPage.php?Log_Id=4765GameLog 3 I’m not usually the one to go out and cause riots and shoot random people, but I got a little bored of doing missions during my jetpack excursion. While flying through San Andres, I climbed to the top of the highest building I could find. I pulled out the sniper rifle and just started to fire upon the people far below me. No one knew who was doing this, which was part of the fun.I eventually accumulated a couple of stars, but the police couldn’t reach me up there. To get more law enforcement to pursue me, I then switched to the rocket launcher and blew up cars. But that wasn’t enough destruction for me. So I stole about 10 cars and piled them up in the middle of the street. Police cars were crashing to my mountain of metal, so it sweetened the deal. I flew up to the top of a nearby building and propelled about 3 rockets the pile and gazed at my chaotic masterpiece in amazement. After that, I had about 4 stars. And I know once I get 6 I will have the police, SWAT, and army after me. So I kept sniping until helicopters forced me out of my hiding spot. I took the jetpack over to CJ’s mother’s safehouse to get a yellow sports car I have locked in there. I sped out and just let all of these armed forces chase me until I died. I forgot how fun this game could be. It allows you to get a certain adrenaline rush you can’t achieve in real life.Wed, 28 Sep 2011 10:48:05 CDThttps://www.gamelog.cl/logs/LogPage.php?Log_Id=4765&iddiary=8839https://www.gamelog.cl/logs/LogPage.php?Log_Id=4765Game Log 2 CJ is forced to do another job he’s not particularly happy to do, but he’s satisfied with his reward for doing them. I meet up with Catalina again to do more missions. I climb the mountains to meet her at her hideout. She instructs me to complete the 3 remaining jobs left to rob the rural town in San Andreas. We drive to a bank with intentions to rob it. While inside she tells me to point my shotgun at the bank staff to keep them scared so they won’t try anything heroic. These are all innocent people. CJ should have a problem with it, but he probably justifies his actions by saying he needs the money more than they do. After trying to intimidate the staff, one security guard starts to shoot at me, so I have to kill him in self-defense. The police are alerted and now we have to run from them. We go out the back door where we are ambushed by a fleet of cops. To fight our way out, we have to shoot maybe over 20 police officers. After this fiasco, I take her back to the hideout and CJ is paid the money he’s killed for. Then I do the jetpack cheat and fly over the city while shooting random civilians for fun. It’s sort of sadistic that I was doing this out of boredom. But that’s part of the game; doing things you can’t do in real life and feeling good about it. (This entry has been edited1 time. It was last edited on Wed, 28 Sep 2011 10:33:38.)Tue, 27 Sep 2011 23:30:57 CDThttps://www.gamelog.cl/logs/LogPage.php?Log_Id=4765&iddiary=8816https://www.gamelog.cl/logs/LogPage.php?Log_Id=4765GameLog 1 I’ve been playing Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas since I was about eleven years old. I was never too young to play because my mother instilled the values in me that the game is all video game violence you I could not do it in the real world without facing the consequences. Through my years of playing this game, I’ve beaten it 4 times including all the side missions. So I know the ins and outs of the game. I can’t remember the last time I played it, but when I popped it into my PS3, I was on the first mission where CJ meets Catalina. Catalina is Caesar’s, CJ’s potential brother in law, cousin. She is wild and ruthless. I help her do all sorts of criminal acts for money. Her plan is to steal as much money as she can and will kill whoever gets in her way. CJ has no beef with the town or the people in it, but helps Catalina with all her wrong doing. His morality comes into question because he does not want to murder tons of people for money, but he does it to satisfy his partner in crime. On this particular mission where I first meet her, we rob a gas station and take the gasoline truck. We first intimidate the store owner to hand over the keys, but he refuses. So we shoot up the shop and try to steal the truck. The owner tries to fight us off and fire back at us, which leads to bullets flying everywhere. I finally blow up the car he’s in and we safely drive the truck to a chop shop to receive money. The second mission, I meet up with Officer Tenpenny. He’s smoking marijuana, something that CJ doesn’t like to do. This is one of the few positive ethical decision of his. Tenpenny instructs me to steal a combine harvester for his friend’s weed farm. CJ does all of these odd jobs he doesn’t want to do, but sacrifices if own morals for money.Mon, 26 Sep 2011 11:29:14 CDThttps://www.gamelog.cl/logs/LogPage.php?Log_Id=4765&iddiary=8774